This layout features Satine and Christian from Moulin Rouge, and was made by me. It's simple, 'cause I'm lazy. The
lyrics scattered throughout are from "Save Yourself" by Sense Field, because I'm obsessed with that song at the
moment.
//just say goodnight to yourself//
Congratulations, you've stumbled upon
the very rambly and pointless blog of
Kerianne, an 18-year-old college freshman from Western NY. She looks a
little
something like this
,
but don't blame her if her ugly mug breaks your screen. She very much
enjoys
writing and reading fanfiction (especially if it's on the smutty side :D),
watching anime, and obsessing over X, as well as movies, music, TV,
shopping, and all that boring stuff that normal people do.
Oh, and she is very opinionated. If you read her blog long enough,
you'll most likely find something that will offend you. To which she will
respond, tough crap, it's her blog. ^_^
Other than that, you most likely know her as the most obsessive Aoki/Karen
fan to ever exist. She is incredibly proud of this title, and would fight
for it if it ever became necessary to, but since no one else likes A/K, it
never will. :D
That's all you need to know. Read on... oh, and if you're a brown-haired,
bespectacled editor, drop her a line, 'cause she has a mad fetish for those
types. ^___^
aoki seiichirou, ewan mcgregor, heath ledger, keanu reeves, josh hartnett, colin farrell, james franco, christian coulson,
and her future husband Clay Aiken.
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All right, guys... you probably saw this coming, but I've made a decision. I'm probably going to be shutting down this blog.
There are a lot of reasons... the main one being that things have changed a lot for me in the past few weeks. I've made new friends, I've lost a few (or at least drastically changed my relationships with them), and I've found myself kind of losing interest in the things that were once really important to me. I want to stay in touch with all of you, but I just don't have the desire nor motivation to post here anymore.
I'm not sure if I'm going to continue writing-- at least, as much as I did before, or on the same topics. That's another thing that I just haven't had the desire or motivation to worry about lately.
I know all this sounds rather dramatic, but I just want to add this disclaimer: nothing negative has happened to me. On the contrary, things are improving. It's just that, to me, this blog represented a sort of fantasy life... and I'm moving past that now. I can't quite explain it, but it doesn't fit who I am right now. (Yes, I know I sound horribly pretentious-- bear with me.)
Anyway. If you want to keep up on what I'm up to, I'll be moving all my thoughts and randomness to my new LiveJournal. If you have an LJ and you don't think I suck, feel free to friend me, or link me and such.
Otherwise... bye, guys. These past few years have been fun. As I said, I hope I'll be able to stay in touch with many of you. And I might come back someday, if it turns out this is all a silly phase. Heh.
So have fun, and don't have too many fun flamewars without me. ^_~
music: Breathe, Greenwheel Saturday, April 12, 2003 @ 08:18 p.m.
Meeeehhh. I'm not having a good day. My best friend has apparently disappeared off the face of the earth (guess that's what I get for losing contact with someone for a couple months *grumble*), I'm going to miss AI tonight 'cause of a stupid rehearsal, and every Monday, Wednesday and Friday from noon on I get the overwhelming urge to jump off something high. Because I'm stupid and shy and gutless and all I can do is gawk at somebody who is way, way too good for me. *curls up in a ball of teenage angst*
Okay, done. In happier news, I'm probably going to be a desk editor at the Leader in two weeks or so. Which means I get to cover the big music festival that's coming up, which is apparently the "trial by fire" for all new arts editors. And the rest of the staff keeps telling me I won't be allowed to go home until after dawn that weekend. Heh. Yay. -.-;;; At least it'll get me out of the house, though... XD
Ammie, you need to blog more, or get on AIM or something. You're always so cheerful and trust me, I need some happy influences right now. XD Anyway, Aoki and Yamazaki? Eh? XDDD Karen would like Fujitaka, I think, since he's practically Aoki's separated-at-birth twin. But I think I like him with Sonomi, because he's so calm and sweet and she's so... psychotic that it would be hilarious. *has to go watch the Flower card episode again*
Oh right, Asuka update. Um... meh. My friends are all excited about it, but I'm just not... sorry. ^^;;; And the two month break is a giant pain in the ass-- they're so lazy. Damn CLAMP.
Oh and... *points and laughs at mini-blog war* Damn, finally some controversy and it's about something I don't give a shit about. Y'all are ruining my fun here-- don't you know your arguments exist for my amusement? XD
I'm going to go drown my sorrows in cookies now.
music: Wednesday, March 26, 2003 @ 05:47 p.m.
Meeeehhh. I'm not having a good day. My best friend has apparently disappeared off the face of the earth (guess that's what I get for losing contact with someone for a couple months *grumble*), I'm going to miss AI tonight 'cause of a stupid rehearsal, and every Monday, Wednesday and Friday from noon on I get the overwhelming urge to jump off something high. Because I'm stupid and shy and gutless and all I can do is gawk at somebody who is way, way too good for me. *curls up in a ball of teenage angst*
Okay, done. In happier news, I'm probably going to be a desk editor at the Leader in two weeks or so. Which means I get to cover the big music festival that's coming up, which is apparently the "trial by fire" for all new arts editors. And the rest of the staff keeps telling me I won't be allowed to go home until after dawn that weekend. Heh. Yay. -.-;;; At least it'll get me out of the house, though... XD
Ammie, you need to blog more, or get on AIM or something. You're always so cheerful and trust me, I need some happy influences right now. XD Anyway, Aoki and Yamazaki? Eh? XDDD Karen would like Fujitaka, I think, since he's practically Aoki's separated-at-birth twin. But I think I like him with Sonomi, because he's so calm and sweet and she's so... psychotic that it would be hilarious. *has to go watch the Flower card episode again*
Oh right, Asuka update. Um... meh. My friends are all excited about it, but I'm just not... sorry. ^^;;; And the two month break is a giant pain in the ass-- they're so lazy. Damn CLAMP.
Oh and... *points and laughs at mini-blog war* Damn, finally some controversy and it's about something I don't give a shit about. Y'all are ruining my fun here-- don't you know your arguments exist for my amusement? XD
I'm going to go drown my sorrows in cookies now.
music: The Dark Messenger (Trance Kuja Theme), FFIX Wednesday, March 26, 2003 @ 04:38 p.m.
Awww, I loved FFIX! At first I liked FFX so much better because of the improved graphics and such (and I still like FFX's battle system MUCH better... fucking ATB sucks *grumbles*), but I actually like FFIX's characters and plot better now that I've finished both. From the other stuff I've heard about it, though, it's one of those games that you either love or hate. I thought it was really funny and cute.
I'm still trying to figure out why the main romances in both games piss me off so much, though. It's not that they're mushy and sappy and romantic, because I love that sort of thing (obviously, just look at half my fics -.-;;)... Maybe it's the fact that I don't feel that either relationship is an equal one. Yuna was such a stereotypical breathy-voiced wussy girly-girl that it made me sick, and Garnet was a little better, but she still had her moments of damsel-in-distress-ness (i.e. the whole "I'm so traumatized I'm going to lose my voice for weeks! PITY MEEEE" shtick. *rolls eyes* THAT was bad).
I don't know, I guess I just have a thing for tough, outgoing women. They can be mushy and romantic and sweet, but they gotta be able to hold their own with their men. Which is why Garnet won a few points back from me for *spoiler* punching Zidane at the end. Heehee. *end spoiler*
And also, I like my men submissive. *snerk* Role-reversals rock.
*blink* And I just realized that most of the above completely ties into the beginning of Kira's entry, as well as Xandra and Becky's discussion, none of which I read before I went off on that tangent. o_O;;;
Anyway, yes. I'm really pathetic these days-- all somebody has to do to get me to read a manga/play a game/watch an anime or TV show or movie is to tell me that one or more of the characters have some similarity to certain favorite characters of mine. And then I end up with all these little sub-obsessions. -.-;;;
And I also realized a couple days ago that I have almost no interest in reading about or watching relationships between teenagers. All the pairings I support involve at least one person who's over 25, and lots of them are over 30. Innnteresting. I always did go for older men (hence my first crush being David Duchovny, when I was 8... heehee). That, and I guess I just can't buy the idea of someone finding their soulmate at age 16. And I like a little realism and maturity in my love stories. *snuggles A&K* (even if they ARE tragic and impossible... *grumble*)
music: Everybody Wants To Rule The World, Tears for Fears Monday, March 17, 2003 @ 04:06 p.m.
New (and not-so-new... but new to you!) ficcage has been posted to ye olde fic blog. Please leave comments and I'll <3 you forever. ^___^
Mmm, spring break, how I love you.
Oh, yeah. Update to the CLAMP fic archive should be done early this week. I'm about... mmm... 1/3 of the way through it right now. I know I've been horribly lazy-- I'll try to be better in the future. ^^;;;;
music: nothing Monday, March 17, 2003 @ 12:08 a.m.
I beat FFIX! Whee. I <3 that game. Even though it suffered from the same problem FFX did, namely a horribly insipid, annoying hero and heroine with a boring and shallow and sappy romance. (Ami, don't kill me. *ducks*) But that's okay, because I found my little secondary-character romance to worship. AND IT'S ACTUALLY CANON! Whee! Heeheehee. Say what you will, I am a total sucker for romances between awkward flustery men and strong, absolutely gorgeous women. (And if you've played FFIX, you probably know who I mean. Heh. I know it's weird. Leave me alone. XD)
AND! I'm writing again! ... yeah, don't look so excited, you might hurt yourself. :P Anyway, I just wrote six pages of an incredibly sappy A/K fic inspired by the fact that I read way too much sappy fanfiction this morning. I mean... honestly, entire sections' worth of it. It's a blessing and a curse that I read fast... I managed to warp my brain quite a bit before lunchtime today. Hee.
And I just realized that this song is PERFECT for another fic I'm writing (fangs, people... fangs). Like, scarily, "get out of my head, bald guy" perfect. *pets it* I like it.
Oh... yeah... American Idol on Wednesday? A fucking debacle (ooh I love that word). VANESSA! Come back to me! *sobs* I loved her! Now Clay's the only one I give a shit about and the rest of them can go to hell. Especially Julia Demato. ESPECIALLY Kimberley Locke. Ugh. I am officially disillusioned.
Kira, interesting-- I didn't get that vibe from To Kill a Mockingbird when I read it in tenth grade. To me, it was refreshing, because it was fairly simple and told a story I understood and didn't get weighed down in symbolism like nearly all the other books I've had to read for school. XP But you do have a point-- and I do agree that most of the classics are painfully boring. Which is why I'm in trouble, 'cause I'm going to be an English teacher. Yuck. ^_^;;;
Kim, OW! (Though for the record, it's not the roleplaying-as-Seishirou part that bothers me. 'Cause that's actually kind of hot. It's just the fact that Kamui's involved that ruins the turnon factor for me. XD)
Okay, I'm gonna write fangy smut now. I promise to blog more. Really. Scout's honor. ^__^
music: Forever May Not Be Long Enough, Live Friday, March 14, 2003 @ 11:30 p.m.
